Wonder how many people working in the VA Regional Office and Central Arkansas Veteran Health Care System have are part of the Klu Klux Clan who preach hate and spew out poison, or how many of those people in the VA Regional or CAVHS has ties to any of them? And just how many lawmakers have ties to them or are actual members of the Klu Klux Klan and other hate groups? Because that’s a few of the places where they’re doing the real damage. I forgot to mention many of them are fishing aholes buddies with members of the justice system, the judges and the attorney’s? Like all hate groups all they’ve done is gone underground. So let us never forget them and the hurt and wrong they’ve caused, so they can never do it again. Because CAVHS is a research facility only, in short CAVHS is nothing more than a Baron Victor Von Frankenstein’s Laboratory and a training ground for a bunch of Igor’s. I’m 50 miles west of them and I won’t even ride the van to seek treatment with them. A doctor in the ER here in Morrilton called on my behalf recently to set up an appointment for me, he was around my age, black and well remembers the times of the 1960's, the 1970's and the time of the draft. When he came in to inform me, he stated, “R everybody in the VA knows you” and my reply “I can guarantee you they didn’t have anything good to say about me”.
I knew then and there it would be nothing more than a cold wasted effort. And had it not been for the intercession of higher authority in the medical field he would most likely have never made it to medical school. My sleeping cycles in Morrilton are out the window and which (CAVHS couldn’t care less about treating), as is any real type of medical care, I sleep whenever I get to go to sleep. I’m not one bit surprised a VA doctor at CAVHS got chewed out for taking the time to talk with and with and examine a veteran, I suppose someone in CAVHS thought they would use me as a free freaking lab rat to dump whatever poisons they cared to dump in me and pull whatever amount of blood they thought they were entitled to, and they found out it wasn’t gonna happen. There was attorney and he was not in the state of Arkansas decided in the recent past to represent me. I stated up front with the legal firm I wasn’t going through any more C&P exams with the VA they’re nothing more than delaying tactics perpetrated by the VA to keep their records updated about veterans and the veteran always comes out the looser. I was further under the impression all correspondence with the VA would be handled by the attorney, the attorney assured me they could and would handle the case with existing records. I wonder what bag of VA records crap the VA Regional Office in North Little Rock saw fit to send that law firm and exactly what kind deal the VA Regional cut with the attorney.
It’s sure as hell is not the first time it’s happened with an attorney representing me and the VA because lest anyone think the VA will not use every loophole and trick in book and some that aren’t even in the book against any veteran they don’t want represented, then think about 10,000 times and then ponder it 10,000 times more. The VA Regional Office then sends me a large pack of letters and forms stating they needed more information about the conditions I was claiming as if the VA doesn’t already have decades of medical records on me already. This attorney then comes back to me with some high pressure tactic demanding I keep any C&P exams the VA cares to throw my way or him and his firm wasn’t going to represent me and at that point I advised him in precise full military gutter language precisely what he could do with his representation. CAVHS doctors might take it gracefully in the public, but you should see the open festering sores they become when in private and some of the flags they place in the medical records of veterans. As for North Little Rock its nothing more than a big bag of horror stories and forget the line “best medial care in Arkansas, its a lie from the word go and doesn’t exist) you want reasonably good VA medical care take it to some other state. Get this I couldn’t even get Nicotine patches without lab work, since when does nicotine patches require blood work. CAVHS’s excuse (and it is a red tape excuse only) medications change the blood gas’s well to hell with them, VA doesn’t compensate me and has slammed every door in my face long ago, so the way I figure it is, their not entitled to even one teeny, tiny little drop of blood from me.
All Of The Years Are Gone Department Of Veterans Affairs
Some would say you brought it on yourself, in fact VA psychiatrist and all psychologists used to beat the hell out of that line every time I would go and talk with one of them. Well all except for the one that treated me in New Orleans that is. As I’ve said before all of my VA claims were denied in early 2003 shortly after returning to Arkansas. Received this little ole letter from The Department of Veterans Affairs out of Washington in today’s mail (07/10/2010), wrote refused three times on the front of it and FOVBA on the back of it and popped it back into the little ole mailbox. In fact didn’t even give a damned what the contents of it were. Department of Veterans Affairs all of the years are gone now and you were never there for me when it might have done some good and made at least a few dreams possible.
Any letters I receive from the Department of Veterans Affairs or any veteran’s organization for that matter with the exception of a newsletter from The VVAW I refuse them and return them. I haven’t had the pleasure as yet though of handing out one of my standard form letters to any VFW, American Legion or DAV members on a membership drive yet but I sure got em standing by at the door lol.
As I’ve stated in previous comments and blog post all of my VA claims are now dead and buried for all time to come and I’ve slammed the door on the VA for all time remaining to me. I’ve no intentions whatsoever of letting anyone ever drag that kind of emotional hell inside me again not ever. Let em all go be with the liars, drug addicts, alcoholics and favorites that got all of the high dollar retroactive VA awards dumped down of top them, because I sure as hell was never one of them.
So if I brought all onto myself then so be it and I will live with, it’s no different than all of the rest of the doors that were slammed in my face over the years. Only this time around I choose to do it with full knowledge and willingly. And now that Don’t Ask Don’t Tell stands a very good chance of being repealed and if it is, the Department of Veterans Affairs and that does include the VA Regional Office in Little Rock/North Little Rock will be obliged to deal with more gay veterans than they even care to think about bravo and I’m glad.
Copied in part From The Associated Press:
The Appeals Court has ordered VA to pay retroactive compensation to Vietnam Veterans with Chronic Lymphocyte Leukemia and flatly stated the Department of Veterans Affairs has contributed substantially to the sense of national shame. The remaining veterans in my family other than myself, one Vietnam who passed away on July the 4th 2001 and the other Vietnam Era who passed away just recently in Sept 2008 are deceased now along with most of my immediate family. Whatever type of assistance or compensation the VA might offer to me now, I will throw it right back in their faces and my door shall remain closed to the VA forever. The fact is I don't even accept Birthday gifts anymore, I truly cannot see celebrating another empty poverty, depression filled year where a bunch of closed minded assholes motivated by nothing other than hate and resentment in and surrounding Morrilton got to decide every bit of the content that went into filling it. The truth is I never had to go into the freaking Military in the first place and I sure as hell never had to stay in it after got in it, it wasn't because of patriotism I was to scared not to go.
By: R Gilbert
Non Compensated Gay Vietnam Veteran
The Little Rock/North Little Rock Veterans Administration Deceptions, Lies and Cover-ups
I hope to bring to the national consciousness the type of antagonistic and anti-gay mentality that is prevalent throughout the entire VA Regional Office and VA Medical Facilities in Little Rock/North Little Rock, Arkansas those in the North Little Rock AR VA Regional Office, Central Arkansas Veterans Healthcare System Eugene J. Towbin Healthcare Center in North Little Rock and McClellan Hospital in Little Rock, AR. There are no less than five (See Hall of Shame) recognized and active hate groups in the State of Arkansas, and I have little doubt that the Little Rock/North Little Rock VA Regional Office and VA Medical Facilities are controlled by a large number of them. I guess psychotic is as good a label as any for the VA doctors in Little Rock/North Little Rock, AR to label me with. I'm sure as hell not the first and most surely will not be the last one to be given thatlabel. No one can pin down all of the resons for depression and PTSD, but the VA in their goverment trained, sponored and paid for idiocity can pin it right on down to a few specifics whooo Hoooooo.
A lot of assholes in the VFW, The DAV, The American Legion and all of the other veterans outreach groups are very quick to point out that I lied on induction papers, well what else is old news and how many lies has the Military, The Government and The Department of Veterans given out over the years. What I think The Department of Veterans Affairs is really pissed off about is I and gay veterans across the country made it. Served honorably in silence and never got outed and discharged in disgrace and so much for their stinking "threat to national security excuse", and I have to wonder at times if it would really have made any difference had I answered yes to any homosexual tendencies. In those days Don't Ask, Don't Tell was even an option. And I really feel The Department of Veterans Affairs, has never given any thought to even the remotest possibility the Gay Movement would ever obtain the political clout that it has now.
This is my theory for a large number of problems faced by gay veterans in Arkansas, and is based in part from my experiences and conversations with the Regional Office, VA Counselors and Outreach Counselors, McClellan Hospital, The VFW, The American Legion, The DAV and various Veterans Outreach organizations. Some have called this ranting and ravings against the man and a cold cruel world so be it, no apologies are offered and none are given. If it were up to those people these so called "Vanity Sites" wouldn't even be on the web. You would have to submit it to their advisory board and it would be the same as trying to get VA compensation, if not impossible, damned near it.
Some have told me I don't know how the VA system works and that may be true. But I sure as hell know when the entire deck is stacked against me (and triply so for a gay Vietnam veteran). My observations here are based on a lifetime of lies perpetrated by the Department of Veterans Affairs and small town Society in this neck of the woods.
GayCityUSA
My service dates (got drafted) were 9 May 1967 to 1 May 1969. For the two years of my active service and up until mid 1974, I hid my sexual preference. In 1980 I was awarded a Non-Service connected pension for nerves and lack of income. This would be terminated in June 1982 because of a re-evaluation report by Dr. Lewis Neal of the Little Rock VA Regional Office. There is little doubt my Sexual Orientation was a deciding factor in that denial, (see Discrimination Veterans Administration).
Though I am mostly self-taught, a good deal of my training comes from the Universities of Ole Screw U, also known as The United States Army and The Veterans Administration. I was even presented with a nice 8x10 certificate "Suitable For Framing" from The University of Screw U Department of The United States Army appropriately titled Honorable Discharge.
In his report Dr. Neal stated my grammar and diction were consistent with my ninth grade education and my self professed Bisexuality. Although the report presented by Dr Neal is highly discriminatory and inflammatory it does present all of the symptoms of PTSD (Post Traumatic Stress Disorder) with the exception of the statement about my self-professed Bisexuality.
On or about 1998 or 1999 the Adjudication Officer Fredrick H King deliberately lied to the Little Rock Office of Senator Hutchinson in which he stated that I had informed (Central Arkansas Veterans Health Care System) CAVHCS that I wished to withdraw my claim for compensation due to lack of transportation. Truth is however I had informed CAVHCS that I wish to cancel a medical appointment due to lack of transportation.
Vietnam Veterans Against The War
I view the time I spent in the Military as a curse, nothing more nothing less and dealings with the VA and VA doctors, The DAV, The VFW, The American Legion here in Arkansas and elsewhere as an even bigger curse. And you will not find any gratitude on this site for any of them. The fact is I've never been welcomed by the Gay or Straight world. What little sexual life I had was taken away by the two years of Military service, and gives every indication of making it a lifelong deal.
Little Rock and Arkansas is so small, impoverished and un-important that no one will get involved. It's one of those places where everyone feels that it nobodies business. Since on or about 1976 as an openly Gay Disabled Vietnam Veteran I have existed on a small Social Security Disability check and the VA has denied me service connection on all types of compensation.
The most recent denial was in early 2003, and I have suffered from PTSD since day one of the Military and extreme panic attacks since the last part of 1968 and Vietnam to the present. I am currently living and have lived below the poverty level due to psychological difficulties stemming from and or aggravated by my Military service and since being Honorably separated from the Military in 1969. Since that time and because of the mental anguish they cause me and the brick wall atitude of the VA I have decided my claims are hopeless and dead and buried, never to be re-opened again.
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